Sunday, June 03, 2012

Thursday, May 03, 2012

This morning whilst waiting to board an airplane in Norfolk I got into a conversation with a very pleasant little old lady. She was going to California (by way of Dallas) to visit a friend and we struck up a conversation. I was so fascinated how her smile lines and other parts of her face moved around as she spoke. that sounds ridiculous but it's true! So soft, with tiny lips, she was only 5 foot in her younger days. She was very proud of the fact that she had 3 great grandchildren...We spoke at length, and I got enough information from her for a very short biography. One thing she said, though, struck me quite a bit, was that of her two grandsons, the one in DC came to visit her every few months...the one who lives less than 10 miles away she sees only yearly it seems. Her third great grandchild, a little girl, is 6 months old and she has not even met her yet. I asked why, and she said "because they are so busy...they don't have time" In our advanced society, we have more labor saving and time saving devices than we know what do do with, so our precious time is wasted more and more. We have a surplus of time and instead of working, moving, traveling towards and visiting with those we love, we veg with a tv....or we read books (usually not) or go to the gym instead of making time for family and friends which is infinitely more important. Why would we do this? in the old days, they wished they had more time in between seasons of farming so that they could visit folks, see people, travel back to Ireland and see the folks...things are so different. another evidence of the anti-people culture.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Revisions to the Child Labor Laws

I was laying in bed this evening, relaxing on facebook when I can across a very disturbing story. The government (in an effort headed by none other than our fearless leader, B.O.)is attempting to broaden child labor laws to include children working on the family farm. As the law reads, children UNDER 18!!! will no longer be allowed to operate machinery or work with farm animals or in barns or silos. If this doesn't trample over a parent's right and duty to parent their child, I don't know what does!!! it's all in the interest of safety, but that doesn't really seem the issue. If a parent diligently caring for their child's upbringing and teaching them to respect nature and the forces around them I don't see a problem. As I understand it, not being anything close to a farmer, there are many things about farming that one must learn early on, that it has to be grown into your blood...and how the heck are you going to learn that at 18??? Lots of your memory is already cut off and even your ability to learn a new language at that age is disintegrated drastically. Perhaps our president does not want to encourage an industrious economy, or the preservation of the American farm. Perhaps they would like more than the 40% of kids receiving food stamps to be getting handouts from the government. Maybe they don't want able bodied children who can work and provide for a family...maybe they don't want food produced here at home...they want to get it all from Cambodia or Honduras. Sure, a child working on the farm is dangerous. That's part of life. Farm kids tend to be a little bit smarter and a good deal more resourceful than their suburban peers. They learn to mind their surroundings early on. The release states that it provides a complete exemption for a children working on their parent's farm, but how long will this be true? and what if they are working on a farm owned by their grandparents or uncle? they would not be allowed under this mandate should it take effect. Furthermore, it would also discontinue the work of many clubs and training organizations such as 4H and Future Farmers of America as kids would no longer be able to work with animals. The ending paragraph of the release seems to indicate that though they will listen to public opinion up until November 1st...it is a done deal. I can't help but think that socialism is taking over America. The actual release from the United States Dept of Labor: US Labor Department proposes updates to child labor regulations: Aims to improve safety of young workers employed in agriculture and related fields Sign the Petition below to say that you do not agree with the proposal as written. Petition at Change.org

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Latest Organization Project

As a somewhat messy person who always needs to have the necessities around. I recently scrubbed my bathroom down and realized that it would be so much neater in there if I had somewhere to put my makeup. boxes and such are nice but not practical for daily use. I had a basked for a bit, but the powders tended to flip over and break apart. My solution was a plastic tray with a lip so that things don't slide off. that way I can actually see the things that I use all the time. I got the idea from the jewelry trays of fashionable ladies in times past.
Being that I'm a grown girl and out of the house, occasionally my siblings look up to me and think "wow! I wanna be like her." This is usually about the time that I receive a request for a sleep over at my place. Tonight, my youngest brothers are over...and after watching Shrek, eating Mac n' Cheese, and playing the game of Life (which I lost to both of them) they have decided that it would be a good idea to light a fire. They were cold and their first thought was to light a fire, not turn up the heat. They have spent the greater part of 30 minutes hunting for sticks and attempting to light a fire. So many times I almost jumped in and said "No! Don't do that! you're gonna burn down the house!" but then I thought: they are not toddlers. They are learning to take care of themselves now. Since they are 11 and 13, it may be time to let them just kinda figure things out...without an adult hovering over them saying "look out for that! What are you doing? Don't do it like that! Are you trying to burn the house down?" I intervened twice, when they wanted to rearrange it and e a flaming log. They shall grown into fine young men yet. mov

Friday, April 06, 2012

Layin' in the yard under the stars

My family has just taken a very big step: they've got a dog. Actually, we've had her for a couple of months now. She a very happy, people loving black lab. and unfortunately, she ends up being lonely quite a bit since she's only happy around people. This evening, the kids were playing frisbee in the street with her running back and forth. It's quite comical to watch because everyone stands around for the most part...the only things moving are the frisbee and the dog.

After this display of athleticism, I hauled my carcass out to the backyard to hang out with her. My youngest sister and I laid down and she laid between us. For an hour or so we just laid there harmonizing old songs with Jasmine sleeping , her head on my arm. 'Down in the Valley,' 'Wayfarin' Stranger,' 'Oh Freedom,' 'All the Pretty Little Horses,' 'Bury me not on the Lone Prarie,' 'Behold the Wood of the Cross,' 'The Raggle Taggle Gypsies,' 'Scarborough Fair.' I had a fleeting thought "Gee, there's probably bugs all over the place crawling around on my skirt or down my shirt." However, I soon banished such thoughts since it was a cool night and I didn't feel anything.

Laying there with the dog on the bare ground, gazing up at the stars, I thought of all those in the past who had done this: my ancestors perhaps, or the settlers of our nation. More than likely it was probably just gypsies. There were so many stars out, more than usual, and the night wind was blowing only softly. The interstate 1/4 mile away was not making much noise, and the moon is full and bright. The Vernal Equinox. It is the night before the the Passover, and the night on which my Savior suffered and died. It was a lovely feeling there on the ground with the dog and my sister...all's right with the world...I'm loved and someone cares for me. I don't care right now that I'm in debt up to my nose; that I have to work in the morning; that I have never had a boyfriend; that I don't know my vocation; that my family's emotions are hanging onto sanity by a thread. My God loves me and He cares. I'd stay under those stars forever.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Stations tonight

Every now and then, I realize that spending time alone in my house is not enough. I do crave alone time, certainly, but alone in my house watching movies and such is so unfulfilling. Furthermore, it tends to breed a desire for more alone-ness and thus I become grumpy if other people intrude on my solitude. And then...I went to Mass tonight.

So simple...so invigorating...Confession before and Stations of the Cross afterward. So beautiful. There was rather a ferocious thunderstorm going on outside with those huge raindrops that cover an entire car in one drip. The lights went out right before the gospel. Mass in the dark. Fantastic.

The Stations of the Cross are one of my truly favorite devotions. The thoughts and ideas contained therein go with my earlier thoughts in a previous post that I don't feel anything. It is hard to feel sorrow for my sins, hard to feel the necessity of going to Mass, hard to feel that I ought to go out for a walk. But perhaps this is numbness is a wake up call for a deeper conversion. The prayers of the Stations are constantly asking for forgiveness and meditation on the sorrows and pains of Our Lord. One sentiment in particular struck me tonight: that the cross in and of itself did not hurt him, for he was a strong man and a carpenter and could easily have carried that wood. The pain and the heaviness came from the weight of our sins, the true burden of calvary. Every sinful act infinitely offensive. I struggle under the weight of my own sins and a couple of the sins around me. I venture to think that I do not even know all of my sins.

Greater love hath no man....

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Contrast

A little girl came into the emergency room today. As I work with kids that is not at all unusual. She wasn't sick; there was no need for medications or IVs or radiological studies. She needed a prescription and went right home. That is not unusual either. What was unusual was her attitude. I walked into the room to introduce herself and her glowing brown face grew brighter with excitement and she began to talk in a babbling toddler voice. Obviously she was excited to meet new people. Such a sweet kid...so I put on Dora the explorer for her and she just about hit the roof, jumping on the bed and screaming "Momma! Momma! look! Dora!!!!" I laughed. What a joyful kid.

On her way out the door her mother took a sticker from the dispenser, only one, and gave it to the girl and once again we saw the same glowing reaction "Oh WOW MOM!!!!" A great big smile and a "Nank Noo!" and she was out the door.

After she left, I wondered "was I ever that excited about life? I cant remember." Childhood...so beautiful. Shouldn't I feel more? I don't care what I eat, a sticker does not brighten my day, and I don't jump for joy when show I like comes on. Almost wish I could turn back that clock...but even if I did, would I get that innocence and joy back? probably not. Still, there must be a way to feel something besides inertia and numbness.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Prayers before and after meals for Christmas and Epiphanytide

Prayer Before Meals

BENEDIC, Domine, nos et haec tua dona quae de tua largitate sumus sumpturi. Per Christum Dominum nostrum. Amen.
Ante prandium
Mensae coelestis participes faciat nos, Rex aeternae gloriae. Amen.
Ante cenam
Ad coenam vitae aeternae perducat nos, Rex aeternae gloriae. Amen.

BLESS us, O Lord, and these Thy gifts which we are about to receive from Thy bounty, through Christ our Lord. Amen.
Add for midday; May the King of everlasting glory make us partakers of the heavenly table. Amen.
Add for evening; May the King of ever-lasting glory lead us to the banquet of life eternal. Amen.

Prayer After Meals

AGIMUS tibi gratias, omnipotens Deus, pro universis beneficiis tuis, qui vivis et regnas in saecula saeculorum. Amen.
V. Deus det nobis suam pacem.
R. Et vitam aeternam.
Amen.
WE give Thee thanks, almighty God, for all Thy benefits, who livest and reignest for ever and ever. Amen.
V. May the Lord grant us His peace.
R. And life everlasting.
Amen.

From Christmas until 1st Vespers of Epiphany

Ante prandium et cenam
Vebum caro factum est, alleluia
Et habitavit in nobis, alleluia
Post prandium et cenam
Notum fecit Dominus, alleluia
Salutare suum, alleluia

Add for midday:
The Word was made flesh, alleluia
And dwelt among us, alleluia
Add for evening:
The Lord hath made known, alleluia
His salvation, alleluia

From Epiphany through January 13th

Ante prandium et cenam
Reges Tharsis, et insulae munera offerent, alleluia
Reges Arabum et Saba dona adducent, alleluia
Post prandium et cenam
Omnes de Saba venient, alleluia
Aurum et thus deferentes, alleluia

Add for midday:

The kings of Tharsis and of the islands shall offer presents, alleluia
The kings of Arabia and of Saba shall bring gifts, alleluia

Add for evening:

All from Saba shall come, alleluia
bearing gold and incense, alleluia

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Rorate Mass (a letter from my pastor)

What is a Rorate Mass?

The Rorate Mass got its proper name from the first word of the Introit (Entrance antiphon): "Rorate caeli désuper et nubes pluant justum". "Shower, O heavens, from above, and let the skies rain down righteousness". We know Gaudete and Laetare Sunday which also got their names from the Introit.

ORIGINS
The Rorate Mass has a long tradition in the Church, especially in German-speaking countries. It is a Votive Mass in honor of the Blessed Mother for the season of Advent. Our Lady shows herself in a special way as our leader through Advent to Christmas. The celebration by candle light had originally a more practical reason. According to the Missal of 1570 no Mass could be said after 12.00 Noon. On the other hand, people had to go to work in the morning. Also the Rorate Masses were celebrated in a more solemn form and therefore would last longer. For these reasons the Masses had to begin relatively early in the morning when it was still dark due to winter-time.

SYMBOLISM
There is a beautiful symbolism associated with the Rorate Mass. Through the snow and cold and darkness of early morning the faithful would trudge with lanterns and candles in their hands to the then brightly lit Church (no electric light!) where the Mass was celebrated.

MARIAN DIMENSION
In Advent we live spiritually between the Annunciation and the birth of Christ. Mary teaches us the spirit of Advent and inner attitude we should have during Advent. During the nine month of pregnancy Mary lived a hidden life, in the spirit of silence and intense intimacy with Christ she carried in her womb. This spirit of intimacy with God the faithful are to cultivate during the season of Advent more intensely by listening attentively to God's message and by obedience to His word.

USE OF CANDLES
What we see so often in Church history: certain things have been done first for practical reasons, but then in the course of time there was also attributed a spiritual meaning. And the use of candles during Advent belongs into this category. The symbolism of the candle matches very well with the spirit of Advent. Advent is dawn. It is still not the bright light of Christmas. Advent is a time of preparation for something exceedingly joyful that will be going to happen. The Church and the soul are still struggling through the darkness toward the Light. There is a longing and expectancy of Advent. The light of our candles is a symbol for our longing for the coming of our Savior Whose light is already dawning. On Christmas Eve we will enter the Church in procession by candlelight. When the Gloria is sung all the lights will be turned on meaning that Christ is now born.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Awake and Alive

This song happens to be my theme just now, when those around me at work and daily events (usually involving gossip, unfaithfulness, murder, and inhumanity) keep getting me down, making me wonder why I do it all...why I do anything. The more exact and philosophical reason for this I have not fully formulated as of yet, so I'll leave that for another post. The song is by Skillet, a rock band, and is one of theirs called Awake and Alive.



I'm at war with the world
And they try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slipping from your arms

It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last

I'm awake, I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life

Right here, right now
Stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake, and I'm alive

I'm at war with the world
'Cause I ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what, I can't be bought or sold

When my faith is getting weak
And I feel like giving in
You breathe into me again

I'm awake, I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life

I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms, I feel you breathe into me
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

A simple death

What prompted me to quote John Donne's sonnet was the death of a child at the hospital last week...a child with severe physical and mental handicaps and a very contorted body. She was in her late teens and had a Do Not Resucitate order on her chart, which basically means that if her heart stops or she stops breathing, we are to do nothing for her but to let her go.

Yes, this was probably a good idea since she was so very sick and had been all her life. I walked into the room from doing something and offered to help, but was told by the other nurse that she was gone.

Gone.

simple little phrase but true nonetheless. Sure, the body is there but she, her essence and soul is not. I held her hand a moment, and looked over her contorted, misshapen little body and wondered about all the sufferings she had experienced, if she had ever had much comfort. Happily, she couldn't have suffered much before she died...and it was nice to see her so peaceful. She passed...and we are finished.

Usually when such a thing happens we are in full gear, administering meds, doing cpr, putting tubes down throats, and attempting to force the body to awaken again. After about 15 minutes of this with no response, we usually discontinue our efforts. This time, nothing happened. I felt weird, like I should be doing something to help her, but she didn't really need our help.

Goodnight, little rose. Thou art now in the garden of paradise.

Thursday, June 02, 2011

Death be not Proud

DEATH be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not so,
For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee, 5
Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,
Rest of their bones, and soules deliverie.
Thou art slave to Fate, Chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poyson, warre, and sicknesse dwell, 10
And poppie, or charmes can make us sleepe as well,
And better then thy stroake; why swell'st thou then;
One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,
And death shall be no more; death, thou shalt die.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

A Day We Will Never Forget

The time has come.

Child number 2 (hereafter known as Suzy) has earned her Bachelors Degree, so the family will converge to partake of this wonderful new step. Who'd have thunk this attempt at familial bonding time would morph into a series of disasters!

It started out well enough, the six younger "kids," dad, and myself camping in Gettysburg for 2 nights. The auto tour was great, the visitors center and cylorama were great! Thousands of memorials dot the countryside, roadsides, and forest paths. The national cemetery is home to thousands of fallen soldiers of that war and 4 subsequent wars. Though beautiful and very interesting to see those places of which we had heretofore only read about, our thoughts were sobered remembering those who had fallen. "Right where I am standing now, a soldier fought and died."

The day we left Gettysburgh, our troubles began. Before we could leave the serpentine belt on the van had to be replaced, so we used the stupid GPS to find 3 different auto parts stores...the first two of which were no where to be found. We went for a hike to McDonald's while dad and Peter fixed the van, and Daniel picked up some friendly little blood suckers on the way. After beating all of the ticks off of him, we started down route 30, also known as the Lincoln Highway, which originates in New York City and ends up in San Francisco, I think. A major thoroughfare from the days of the epic road trip. That very day, just after going though Pitsburg the van stalled out on the interstate...started again...stalled 2 more times before we were able to get off the interstate.

I cannot describe the pit of fear that arose in my chest...other than it was the most nervous and afraid I have been in a very long time. Sufice to say, that we then ran up a hill to go to a gas station which did not exist, then a very nice, toothless young man from West Virginia gave us some gas.

You know, there is something to be said for good breeding, and though this toothless, scruffy young West Virginian who probably had no more than a highschool education at best was on his way home from work the same as everyone else, he stopped to help some stranded out-of-towners, gave us three gallons of gas which he would not take payment for. There were many better educated and better kempt looking persons about, but all they did was stare and smirk...or simply ignore us.

We got to the gas station, gassed up, then the van would not start. Almost the same moment, the sky opened in a severe storm. Happy times, right? we were quite happy for the shelter of the gas station. A friendly Texan offered to jump us, but the car wasn't jumping.

Anyhow, to make a terribly long story short, we ended up stranded in a gas station for about 5 hours, I spent most of it attempting to obtain lodgings for that night (thank God the GPS and my phone held a charge for a few hours!). Suzy arrived in the oldsmobile to take 4 people with her. the tow truck came to tow the van (and the remaining 4 personel) into town...and a very interesting person was the driver. Covered in tatoos and spitting tobacco out the door every so often. He then took us to the hotel (where we could stay only Thursday night) and bade us farewell. Needless to say there was much heated emotion and frustration that night but we all made it through. The next day, we found an Holiday Inn 20 miles north in West Virginia...and let me tell you that ferrying 10 people back and forth in a

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Catholic Action; or the escapades of three children endevouring to save souls.

Plenary indulgences may usually be gained only once a day and for each one must receive confession and communion and be detatched from their sins. Well, for the first 9 days of November, the month of the Holy Souls, one may attain an indulgence each day for the poor souls in Purgatory if one visits a cemetery and prays for the dead.

My sister, brother, and I were endeavouring to save as many souls as possible and had visited cemeteries for the first six days consecutively. At around 9pm on a school night, we realized "oh no! we didn't visit the cemetery today!" Lucky for us, a mile down the road is a little Mennonite church, behind which is a little Mennonite cemetery. We hopped into the 93 Oldsmobile and coasted down to the church, our teeth chattering since it usually takes about 10 minutes for the heat to get warm in that car.

Upon our arrival, we parked in the deserted parking lot and set off into the blackness behind the church. (CHRUNCH!) (CRRRRAACK!) the dried leaves and twigs beneath our feet. We tried to walk quietly, but we couldn't see a darned thing. "What if somebody seeeeees us?!?" came a harsh whisper. "They won't. It's too dark" I reassured her. "Yeah...it's so dark that if there was a murderer out here we wouldn't see him until it was too late...or a snake or something." "Oh NO!" "Stop it you two!" I whispered hoarsely, feeling goosebumps crawling up my neck.

There they were. The tombstones. We knelt (for we are very pius young Catholics) in the moist ground and commenced our Paters and Aves and Glorias in hushed voices. We stood to finish our prayers (because our knees were wet) when the whole world lit up. A frantic "hit the ground! from my brother and we were down on all fours. It was only a neighbor turning on his backyard flood light to ignite his grill (Who does that at 9pm!?!), but we felt the need for secrecy and slunk out of there double quick and doubled over.

All for the holy souls.